| 17 Dec 2021 |
 prosody Vereable Context (Gabriel Gaston Croft) | I mean, having my parents find what I was looking for in that sense would have led to violence, I already lost all chance of Black friends in school, just by telling my parents theyr'e not White and Jewish got me nonstop/everyday heat. | 00:20:20 |
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| prosody Vereable Context (Gabriel Gaston Croft) | .Β‘π πππΎππππΒ‘.: Real name? Verification please. | 00:34:23 |
| @antepost:matrix.org | Redacted or Malformed Event | 00:35:22 |
| prosody Vereable Context (Gabriel Gaston Croft)changed room power levels. | 00:35:44 |
| prosody Vereable Context (Gabriel Gaston Croft) | Psychological breakthroughs lead to Matrix and Oath.com officers being witty. | 00:36:47 |
| prosody Vereable Context (Gabriel Gaston Croft) | 37, is also like 737 which adds to 17. Boeing is a great company clearly all good minds. | 00:37:30 |
| @antepost:matrix.org left the room. | 00:38:05 |
| prosody Vereable Context (Gabriel Gaston Croft) changed the join rule to "invite" from "public". | 01:12:53 |
| prosody Vereable Context (Gabriel Gaston Croft) | To add to the fun, my racial identity was (being) effected by my sexual and gender identity. I have trouble determining if/which of the race/sex/gen id variables was the most significant counter/buzzword. I mean, I got heat for just hinting to my parent(s) about my schoolfriends' ethnicities (which I had to learn to not give away to mother/father/etc), then by not trying to breed I got labeled LGBTQUIA*, and what now realize is other people were guessing. | 01:38:18 |
| prosody Vereable Context (Gabriel Gaston Croft) | What I now realize is other people guessing, in the form of professional assumptions and expectations, often referencing the last person I talked to from their research as a form of final evidence, was actually just professional guessing. Which for me, at the time, their guesses sounded like fact, with the professional degrees and all. | 01:40:20 |
| prosody Vereable Context (Gabriel Gaston Croft) | I am not sure if saying White/Black er LGBTQ was the most significant buzzword. But any of those terms, it's like a password/keyword to get a bunch of referrals. | 01:41:57 |
| prosody Vereable Context (Gabriel Gaston Croft) | All the while, nothing from a professional so triggering as a buzzword as those keywords. I could say Mother and Father 100 times and faint, and if I said "genitals" or "creed" right before fainting all they're going to remember is not the words Mom and Dad β somehow. | 01:44:26 |
| prosody Vereable Context (Gabriel Gaston Croft) | Somehow β Dad and Mom are not taken seriously as Vocabulary words like racial and ethnic terminology, even if I'm fairly sure/certain that Mothers and Fathers come before. | 01:46:26 |
| prosody Vereable Context (Gabriel Gaston Croft) | I guess talking about genitals in more exciting than talking about your Mom/Dad's problems, for a professional? | 01:49:24 |
| prosody Vereable Context (Gabriel Gaston Croft) | I was prescribed medication like Celexa which is basically off-label Viagra, when I was remembering my parent(s) verbaliized fantasies in sessions. Apparently the priority was getting me to breed to fix my problems, before talking about the English words I remembered. | 01:51:29 |
| prosody Vereable Context (Gabriel Gaston Croft) | I do not know who comes into a psychotherapy/psychologists session and just starts speaking legal code describing severe issues. Some people are lucky to fit all the buzzwords in under a few words (even better, most people can just watch CNN/Fox and repeat), I had a mathword problem instead. It would have helped to have English vocabulary be prioritized memory. | 01:54:43 |
| prosody Vereable Context (Gabriel Gaston Croft) | Guessing professionally, err Guessing Professionals are what fill the vacuum when recording what I actually said was not the goal. | 01:57:53 |
| prosody Vereable Context (Gabriel Gaston Croft)changed room power levels. | 04:05:02 |
| prosody Vereable Context (Gabriel Gaston Croft)changed room power levels. | 04:09:32 |
| prosody Vereable Context (Gabriel Gaston Croft) changed the join rule to "public" from "invite". | 04:12:03 |
| prosody Vereable Context (Gabriel Gaston Croft)changed room power levels. | 04:16:44 |
| prosody Vereable Context (Gabriel Gaston Croft)changed room power levels. | 04:17:34 |
| prosody Vereable Context (Gabriel Gaston Croft)changed room power levels. | 04:17:42 |
| prosody Vereable Context (Gabriel Gaston Croft) | 2+2 if you notice = I am being defined by my behavior typing at a computer and not 4 memory of the words I wrote. | 04:26:17 |
| prosody Vereable Context (Gabriel Gaston Croft) | You might notice, I am not being asked what I wrote by someone quoting my words. (I am talking about social networks and moderators, real worlds and cops and doctors, who do not know how to ask a question in English by quoting me in English.) | 04:35:09 |
| prosody Vereable Context (Gabriel Gaston Croft) | Then you start to notice, that I am being asked questions by people who do not use a real name and claim authority positions in arguments, while actual authority figures refuse to document themselves talking to me in full speech. | 05:11:53 |
| prosody Vereable Context (Gabriel Gaston Croft) | I mean, 007. | 18:07:02 |
| prosody Vereable Context (Gabriel Gaston Croft) | Not to be confused with a "737 MAX" Boeing plane (clearly the MIN as not the Social-Memory issue...), and not to be confused with "17". I know these others have the same "7" in them and that will be confusing for some people with structured educations and academic background that only gave them a Degree not a Brain. | 18:11:51 |
| prosody Vereable Context (Gabriel Gaston Croft) | *Was not the Social-Memory Issue wath/math ideal, an ideal that I am being determinably attacked for. Here it is we have SR-71, 737, 747 and 007 made as-if by the grace of G-d's business words, and the best idea in the room was MAX not MIN for that. For the religious nuts, I do not read any attempt to formally correlate 737 with a biblical verse, either. What was on their mind and what were they even thinking making counting numbers and not words important? | 18:48:37 |
