| 28 Aug 2019 |
 Seven (phone alt) | I used to have some korean girl as my friend from my favorite roblox game at the time and we got along pretty well. Some months later she ended up finding other friends, and I didn't care at first, but I realized I wasn't the only one that got along with her anymore. Since I still wanted to play with her I joined her in games where she was playing with her other friends as well, but I felt like only the korean girl still liked my presence there. The others never seemed to want to accept me for whatever reason. One day after i kept persisting around, korean girl invited me to voice chat with them, so I did. One day in voice chat some spic friend of hers was going to do face reveal or something? But then suddenly I was kicked from vc and I thought well this is weird so i re joined it. I got kicked again 2 more times. After that it really hit me that I was just an extra entertainment source for her and nothing more.
Now I have made other friends but one thing I notice with all of them is that when they seem to have other friends besides me, I lose major interest in them and kind of slowly fade away from hanging out with them... | 07:05:41 |
 FF777m | you learn a lot of things like that from going through life.. | 07:07:39 |
| FF777m | but i think i might be the same way to some degree.. | 07:07:51 |
| FF777m | i don't like it when friends start liking other friends more than me...i guess? | 07:08:22 |
| FF777m | at least i didn't used to.......i guess i am still like that to some degree but..... | 07:08:41 |
| Seven (phone alt) | i get extremely jealous when any other people seem to be getting close/closer to my friend i have at the time | 07:08:59 |
| FF777m | ....over time you kind of change........or i did at least.........as kind of a protection mechanism?.............. | 07:09:00 |
| FF777m | ....it seems like now i've adopted more of a policy of like..........if you want to hang out with me, then cool, but if you don't, then whatever, go away then.. | 07:09:24 |
 @cletusesbuttplug:matrix.org | I wish I had friends | 07:12:15 |
| Seven (phone alt) | and i mean online friends | 07:12:25 |
| Seven (phone alt) | i dont have any friends in real life | 07:12:33 |
| @cletusesbuttplug:matrix.org | you guys are my only friends | 07:12:43 |
| @cletusesbuttplug:matrix.org | I love you guys | 07:12:50 |
| Seven (phone alt) | i love all you too | 07:13:00 |
| Seven (phone alt) | no homo except for ff though | 07:13:04 |
| FF777m | go KEEP YOURSELF SAFE | 07:13:05 |
| FF777m | that was towards cletus man | 07:13:22 |
| FF777m | im kidding cletus is cool | 07:13:56 |
| Seven (phone alt) | i have one more confession to make | 07:16:44 |
| FF777m | yay i can't wait | 07:16:59 |
| @cletusesbuttplug:matrix.org | we're here for you | 07:17:10 |
| Seven (phone alt) | i had a young Australian girl as a friend on roblox that i met through some gay cafe game, at the time they were kind of fun but after i realized the schemes that they were pulling behind the scenes i lost all interest in them besides to troll which was pretty fun. Australian girl kept hanging on to hope and got their discord and made friends with one the higher ranks in there. I guess she thought if she made friends with her she would get promoted or something. Nothing ever came of it and I think she ended up feeling like she wasted time hanging out with that higher rank chick. I kind of expected that all to happen so i didn't really care and even got kind of mad at her for being stupid like that. We ended up fading our friendship because she got super sensitive about me getting mad at her.
Months to a year later or so I see her again and say hey im sorry i got mad at you back then since you probably already felt betrayed and lets start being friends again? she said yes so i started hanging out with her again. She had started her own gay cafe group this so she could be owner and invited me to help. she was kind of gay about it though and that pissed me off again, but i thought oh well i do feel bad about before so maybe i should stick around for a bit longer. She started to vent to me on discord about how the rest of her discord group hated her and made fun of her because all of the other members were those whiny type females. She also started saying how she got bullied at school and then eventually how she wanted to kill herself. Since so many people joke about suicide I didnt actually really take it that seriously, also because i was still kind of pissed at her. eventually one day she messaged me "i started my period" and then i never heard from her again. the discord group closed down, her roblox group went inactive and there has been no sign of any activity on her roblox profile. so i do kind of believe now that she killed herself or got found trying and something else happened from there. | 07:32:10 |
| Seven (phone alt) | oh ya she also liked to listen to rap songs | 07:32:35 |
| Seven (phone alt) | we were both young maybe like 11-12 at the time | 07:32:50 |
| Seven (phone alt) | but she seemed kind of stupid and was kind of a brat | 07:33:03 |
| Seven (phone alt) | * i had a young Australian girl as a friend on roblox that i met through some gay cafe game, at the time they were kind of fun but after i realized the schemes that they were pulling behind the scenes i lost all interest in them besides to troll which was pretty fun. Australian girl kept hanging on to hope and got their discord and made friends with one the higher ranks in there. I guess she thought if she made friends with her she would get promoted or something. Nothing ever came of it and I think she ended up feeling like she wasted time hanging out with that higher rank chick. I kind of expected that all to happen so i didn't really care and even got kind of mad at her for being stupid like that. We ended up fading our friendship because she got super sensitive about me getting mad at her.
Months to a year later or so I see her again and say hey im sorry i got mad at you back then since you probably already felt betrayed and lets start being friends again? she said yes so i started hanging out with her again. She had started her own gay cafe group this so she could be owner and invited me to help. she was kind of gay about it though and that pissed me off again, but i thought oh well i do feel bad about before so maybe i should stick around for a bit longer. She started to vent to me on discord about how the rest of her discord group hated her and made fun of her probably because all of the other members were those whiny type females. She also started saying how she got bullied at school and then eventually how she wanted to kill herself. Since so many people joke about suicide I didnt actually really take it that seriously, also because i was still kind of pissed at her. eventually one day she messaged me "i started my period" and then i never heard from her again. the discord group closed down, her roblox group went inactive and there has been no sign of any activity on her roblox profile. so i do kind of believe now that she killed herself or got found trying and something else happened from there. | 07:34:00 |
| FF777m | oh wow rip | 07:36:14 |
| Seven (phone alt) | yea rip her i guess | 07:36:22 |
| Seven (phone alt) | not sure what her relationship with parents was | 07:36:38 |
| Seven (phone alt) | so she might be in some mental hospital | 07:36:50 |
