| 18 Jan 2021 |
 Jez (he/him) | 😻 | 16:33:14 |
| Jez (he/him) | ours doesn't sound like that though, mostly just a gentle rhythmic sighing | 16:33:34 |
| Jez (he/him) | quite relaxing really | 16:33:48 |
 djkhalis | She doesn't do this often, but she managed to wake me up worried thinking that someone very angry is moving furniture downstairs 🤦♀️ | 16:40:56 |
| Jez (he/him) | cut! | 16:48:28 |
| Jez (he/him) | * cute! | 16:48:31 |
| Jez (he/him) | and annoying! | 16:48:37 |
| djkhalis | Oh I could never be annoyed by that little lazy mentor of mine 😌 she's as needy as I need her heh | 16:52:30 |
| 21 Jan 2021 |
| Jez (he/him) | Last few weeks bee rewatching Buffy the Vampire Slayer (the TV series) and wow Cordelia is definitely autistic! | 07:59:22 |
| Jez (he/him) | * Last few weeks been rewatching Buffy the Vampire Slayer (the TV series) and wow Cordelia is definitely autistic! | 07:59:38 |
| djkhalis | Oh I never knew! I'll look into it, made me curious:) | 10:31:40 |
| Jez (he/him) changed their display name from Jez (he/him) 🐍🦀 to Jez (he/him). | 11:22:28 |
| 22 Jan 2021 |
| djkhalis changed their profile picture. | 10:53:29 |
| djkhalis changed their profile picture. | 10:54:13 |
| 23 Jan 2021 |
|  @iamhazel:matrix.org joined the room. | 22:54:39 |
| @iamhazel:matrix.org | In reply to @djkhalis:matrix.org
sent an image. Good god they're beautiful 😭 I need a cat so bad! | 22:56:01 |
| 24 Jan 2021 |
| djkhalis | Owh, I wish every person had a cat, honestly. No exaggeration but I owe my life to that snoring little bread loaf, love her with all my heart. Sometimes I wish I could just explain to her what she did for me, I know she feels my love but ahhh | 17:05:27 |
| 25 Jan 2021 |
 @ij:kahakai.de | I'm feeling so tired and exhausted... sigh Winter Blues Time... | 07:37:38 |
| 26 Jan 2021 |
| Jez (he/him) | As a change from cats, enjoy this live feed of peregrine falcons on London Metropolitan University https://hml.londonmet.ac.uk/Live/34 | 11:20:38 |
| djkhalis | Oh he's cuuute | 11:35:31 |
| 28 Jan 2021 |
 @DatseMultimedia:matrix.org | I have a dog. And silly me, I'm not a fan of cats. I get the appeal, but I think a big thing is I like to breathe, and I can't take anti-histamines... (apparently I should just take anti-histamines and be super twitchy and not complain about people who are exposing me to stuff I know I'm allergic to). | 07:04:11 |
| Jez (he/him) | Dogs are cute too, and being able to breath is important. | 12:52:37 |
|  @bughuntercat:matrix.org joined the room. | 12:56:27 |
| Jez (he/him) | I hope this isn't a weird overshare, but I'm interested if others have a similar experience...
I'm attending a conference for work, fully online because pandemic and attendees cameras are disabled so no-one can see or hear me. I've found I'm much calmer and more focused sitting under a blanket watching and sucking my thumb, which I haven't done since about age 12. | 13:50:24 |
| Jez (he/him) | But at the same time, even though I'm completely alone I have a big feeling of shame about doing something that is so stereotypically childish and immature. | 13:51:05 |
| Jez (he/him) | Like here I am, a grown-up adult human person in my 30s doing the thing that I got shamed into stopping doing as I grew up and that caused me loads of orthodontic problems in my teens. | 13:52:22 |
| djkhalis | I'm happy you found the strength to share :) I suppose it's just your stim, as far as I understand, they come and go in waves. My mum used to threaten to slap me for my stims when I was younger, so I'd suppose if I started doing the same ones I did back then, I'd relive those awkward and frustrating memories. And I find it so hard to refrain from chewing and sucking on basically anything I write with, people get grossed out, I get it, but at the same time, I get me as well. | 14:15:20 |
| djkhalis | And I'm at my job at the moment (dementia care home, imagine all the noise..) I get passive anxiety just from being here. And the thought of hiding in a blanket and sucking my freaking thumb made me soo calm hahah. | 14:16:43 |
| djkhalis | I sleep like a fetus, like, my knees almost touch my face. And I love it. I wanna go back to that period, why wouldn't I? | 14:17:57 |
 @amiya:beerfactory.org | I completely understand | 14:57:57 |
